change in the weather

Y’know that scene in Mary Poppins — when the wind changes?  And then all of a sudden, life changes?  I feel that way about the first true cold snap in the fall.

Now, to be fair, I missed the first one — I was lounging by a pool in Austin Texas, trying to summon the strength to — well, do anything — following a three-day juice fast. Er, cleanse. Detox? (Sorry, terminology.  Gets me every time.)  But this evening, the cool seemed to descend as the sun sank in the sky, and I shivered –legitimately — when Lucy and I ambled around the yard.  And it knew it was real.  Mmmm…. I love it.

I’ve been attempting to sit and write all week — but my journey home on Sunday kicked my butt (who knew Philadelphia was so popular a destination from Austin TX, that one cancelled flight could throw and entire day into chaos? … Oh, right, there is only one flight from Austin to Philadelphia … that would explain it!) And then returning to work didn’t help with the fatigue.  And taking care of Lucy solo — while always a joy, because she is a joy — can also be somewhat exhausting.  So here I am, Thursday night, just sitting down to clickety clack on the keyboard.  And all that’s coming out are rambles.  Haha!

I spent last week in a truly incredible place — also completely surreal and outside of my previous scope of reality — and it has had such an impact, that it has begun to influence nearly every decision I make.  Especially in terms of food.  Which is tough.

I have a journal that I kept — notes from classes and thoughts jotted down in incomplete sentences.  But my brain is so loosey goosey right now, I think I would do a huge disservice to the program I attended if I tried in any way to write about it right now.

Instead, I think I’m going to curl up under some soft blankies with my puppy, listen to her soft snuffles, and fall asleep about ten minutes into whichever movie I choose to pop into the BluRay.  And then tomorrow, there will be no more sleeps left until the man gets home, and life will be right again.

 

One thought on “change in the weather

  1. Hi sweetheart. Just spent a few moments reading your last two entries and I wanted to say how moved I am by them. You write so well, and express yourself so beautifully.

    I especially understood your thoughts on loneliness.

    With all my love,

    Aunty Lenny xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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