Thursday, September 1st, 2022

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01sept22

It always feels like a relief when September arrives.  Even though it’s still blazingly hot and humid.  Even though nothing has changed much from August (if you aren’t a parent, which I am not).  But it’s the hint of change, the promise of cooler days.  The dream.

Yesterday J+I drove up to Mortgage #2 (an affectionate nickname) to receive a refrigerator for the garage.  Every part of that sentence is bougie and I know it.  I’m pretty bougie (daily yoga at the studio and chai teas and online shopping habits and designer blankets etc etc).  But having a second house and now a fourth refrigerator?  I’m externally (& internally) rolling my eyes.  My biggest frustration today has been trying to scale my photography so this damn blog will upload the files … and yes, I hear myself.

Recently I’ve been thinking a lot about change.  Partially because it’s kind of inevitable as the seasons begin to shift.  But also because I have been working on this blog and whew – I have changed a lot since I wrote some of my early stuff.  I just updated my ‘Curiosity About Me’ page because when I read it, I didn’t even recognize it as myself.  Which made my brain begin to whir and spin, contemplating how we all change and evolve (or not!) over time and it isn’t just our hair or our waistline.  It’s our values and our day-to-day existence.  I changed out the picture of John and I because we look completely different.  But I also changed all but one ‘fun fact’ on my list, because I’m not the same person who started this blog in 2011.  And I never will be again.

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Fun fact — all the cells in our body change over every seven years.  So every seven years, we are – theoretically but also biologically – completely different people. It’s crazy and wild that we stay in relationships and friendships and jobs and lifestyles for so long – as though longevity and loyalty trump all.  Shouldn’t we always be evolving and adjusting our lives to reflect who we are in a given moment?  I think so.  I mean, I still adore my husband but he’s changed remarkably since we met all those years ago.  We’ve just changed and evolved together – as a partnership.  We haven’t stayed the same, and neither has our relationship.  Which is both the best parts of us and sometimes, some of the worst parts.

I always vow to never become as close-minded or grumpy about new-ness as older generations are and have been toward my generation and the ones that have followed.  But perhaps it’s inevitable that there will come a point when I look around and don’t recognize or understand the society ebbing and flowing around me.  (Let’s hope not, but I can’t guarantee anything).

About a month ago, one of my closest friends (dare I say best?  … I dare) approached me about an idea she’s been working on developing.  I’ve shied away from working with her in the past because I don’t want our relationship to become about work and nothing else.  I don’t know why but I was skittish that it could irrevocably (& negatively) change our friendship.  But then I started thinking about all the people in my life who I love ridiculously and who I met through work.  It’s a lot of people. Stretched out over a lot of years.  So why wouldn’t I give this fledgling idea a chance – because it’s a really, really good one.

Anyway.  That brings me to today – tapping away at this blog and trying to refresh it as best I can in anticipation of what Danielle is cooking up.  We’ll see what happens.  But I plan on enjoying the ride.

 

xox, g