On Wednesday my husband bought me three Caramello bars.
I adore Caramello bars. I compulsively buy them every time I go to a Wawa (or heaven-forbid another gas station market). I cannot go to CVS without detouring to the candy aisle to check for them. If I don’t eat them, I stash them in the freezer. Y’know. Just in case.
I was feeling a little blue on Wednesday. It’s the middle of March, so it’s right on time. But it gets me every year because I am convinced that it will be better. It never is.
Tuesday’s ‘blizzard’ was so disappointing, and my day was so … far from what I’d imagined … that Wednesday felt like a hangover. The ‘ice snow’ was piled inconveniently around the entire neighborhood, making a walk with Lucy like climbing Everest and moving my car basically a no-go Not that I had an incredibly exciting destination. I didn’t. But a chai tea latte on a snow squall day can cheer up anyone. And it wasn’t even an option.
Bad days are always peppered in with good days — regardless of my work status. I think everyone — if they were being honest — could agree that not every day dawns full of sunshine and roses. It’s really about how we choose to deal with the obstacles.
I’m getting better, but I’m not necessarily good.
Some of the things I’m non-negotiable about in order to get myself motivated ~
I always get up when John takes Lucy out for her morning walk. No matter what, I make us smoothies. I’m pretty Nazi-ish about green smoothies. Sometimes all John wants on the weekend is a big breakfast, and instead I present him with a bright green smoothie, and multi-vitamins. He’s a champ though, and drinks them every day.
I also made a commitment last March to ride my bike. And now, I ride pretty much every day. Even when I procrastinate until 4pm, I manage to slink down, climb on and ride. And inevitably, I feel better. All that talk about endorphins and exercise? Yeah, it’s pretty true. Exercise works like a charm every time to boost my spirits.
I’m also a little obsessive about my water intake. I try really hard to drink about 90 ounces of water a day. First, it’s not easy. Second, you have to pee a.lot. But again, it always ends up being worth it. I feel better, I don’t stuff junk food in my face all day, and my skin looks amazing (haha!).
I think one of the most important things is recognizing when the blues are coming. Sometimes I’m in them before I realize. But because I am such a creature of habit, I’ve usually already had my green smoothie, drunk a ton of water, and either ridden the bike or had it planned. Doing these things are a small help in keeping my life on an even keel. Because it’s not just about the sadness, it’s also about the M.S. The way it wreaks havoc with your life. The way you are up one minute and down the next.
I’m really really hoping that the weather figures itself out and we progress slowly toward April and warmer temperatures. I love the winter and the snow. But Mother Nature sure has been ornery about it this year. I’m ready to feel steady again.