I keep thinking that I will somehow get my life organized … tomorrow. But then, tomorrow arrives and everything is still hectic and busy and I’m still digging in Tupperware containers trying to find a shirt *I know* I own and yet cannot find … and then tomorrow and another tomorrow and all of a sudden it’s March and life is steamrolling along and I’m getting whiplash trying to keep up.

It is not for the faint of heart.

I think of my mother often, and how she managed to move us every few years, just packing and unpacking and also driving us to sports and activities and smiling and listening … and I feel overwhelmed with a fatigue that seems deeper than MS fatigue (which I did not think was even possible).

A few days ago husband and I were in Philadelphia for an appointment at Fox Chase Cancer Center and we also had to take the Volvo to the dealership for service (the dealership near our new house closed and the closest one is two hours away so … West Chester it is). And somehow, our timing worked out and we snuck up to KoP and into the Apple Store to look at iPads.

I didn’t really know I wanted a new iPad until I realized that my computer is about nine years old and my iPad not much younger, and all I craved was tech that reliably worked for the things *i* needed it to work for — not husby, or work, or what I read online somewhere. But actually, truly, what I was needing. A place to write that travelled with me. That allowed me to watch a movie or two if I so chose … it sounds trivial and small and something I could figure out with any of the other devices I owned. But for some reason, a new piece of tech, that was all mine, for my use purpose — and not a computer that I was given by work or an iPad that was re-homed when hubs got a new one …. It felt too intriguing to pass up.

And so today, I am finally sitting down and typing away at my new iPad. No, I didn’t get a laptop. I don’t need a laptop. I need something that’s easy to use and a keyboard that is comfortable to type on and something that has a bit of memory for everything I’m not storing in the cloud.

She’s beautiful and I love her and I look forward to many years of happy companionship between my iPad and me. And now I have written a bit, even though it’s trivial, and I have marked the occasion. So I feel at peace.

Now, off to see Creed III.

Xox, g