There are days when I truly wish that I could look as awful as I feel.  Because then maybe people would pay attention and have some grace.

I work hard to appear as healthy as possible – hydration and skincare and exercise (and a smallish shopping addiction haha).  But today – feeling utterly horrible and wanting to just completely die – I wished that people could understand.  And I knew – I always know – that they can’t.  Healthy people cannot understand the Herculean effort that goes into existing in the world while constantly struggling with pain.  It’s just not possible.  Imagination can only go so far.

It’s another early night and I am vowing (once again) to start blogging earlier in the day.  I feel like the sky is crashing down.  I am so, so tired.  I am in such pain.

It sucks.

Xox, g