Today was an interesting day.  Gray and warm for February but also full of strange and left-field emotions.

Once I got on the bike (a struggle but accomplished!) I felt much better.  And even when I’m sitting and feeling woeful I know exercise will help.  It’s getting up and getting it done that I find so difficult sometimes.

Life was all over the map last week — painful both physically and emotionally and without much stability.  This week feels better – a little more rhythm and routine.  Less pain, less uncertainty.  But the weather wreaks havoc with my body and I always find that disconcerting.

My mind is full right now – not an excellent sign considering I meditated (but I also read my email, which I know not to do before bed but did it anyway … whomp whomp).  I trying to remind myself that my frustrations are more a reflection of me than anyone else (per my meditation, which felt timely while reading my emails and quietly steaming) but frustrated I remain regardless.

Must sleep now.  An early morning and a doctor’s appointment awaits.

Xox, g