One of the things that I’ve been trying (and mostly failing) to learn is the difference between what is good for me and what I *think* is good for me.

Case in point – it pains me to take my Apple Watch off if I haven’t hit my goals – not just my red green and blue rings but also my step count.  Tonight I am going to sleep short about 1500 steps.  Because what’s good for me (rest) trumps what my watch says (walk longer).  I know this because I am always learning the nuances of my disease and today – with its huge temperature changes – slayed me and my poor, lead weight legs.  I don’t need to push my body any further, I need to rest it.  But those steps will haunt me and I will try to make up for them the rest of the week.

Knowing and doing are two very different things.  Knowing tells me I shouldn’t eat gluten or dairy but  … when a Reuben sandwich presents itself, I have a hard time saying no.  Knowing says respect your body but doing says “Use it or lose it,”.  And with MS, that’s a true and highly likely possibility.

I’m going to go to sleep now and try to be gentle with myself this week as the temperatures bob back and forth between spring and mid-winter.  I am going to try.

Xox, g