Wednesday, February 16th, 2022
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Life has been anything but easy lately. Not just my father-in-law’s health, but my own and how to manage my disease while being supportive of my husband as he navigates the unknown waters of post-surgery delirium.
This moment is the other shoe dropping.
Things happening in clusters – first a run of really good things and now a run of really challenging things. Moments that remind me again and again how far I have to go on my journey of self-development and self-discovery.
How do you know the line that differentiates self-care from selfishness? How do you give without giving up everything … your self-worth, your mental health, your personal peace? I wonder these things as I sit in my headache purgatory. As I order groceries online to be delivered. As my legs buckle beneath me, giving up or giving in …. On the verge of giving out.
How do I walk this tight rope of personal preservation as my husband transitions to permanent care-taker? Is it even possible?
This is the other shoe dropping. Loudly. With a definitive thud.
Xox, g