Life takes us on weird twists and turns.

I was thinking about that today as husband drove down to the hospital to be with his parents and I stayed home, exhausted beyond reasonable exhaustion.

I’ve had a couple days in the past when exhaustion has prevented me from essentially functioning as a human.  I’ve gotten better at recognizing it — I used to ‘push through’ but pushing through just comes back to bite me (usually in the form of a days long migraine).  Today I realized that everything I thought I was going to do wasn’t actually going to get done.  In fact, nothing was going to get done.  Not working out, not dinner with my Aunt & Dad, not showering (which takes an absurd amount of energy that I just did not have).

I used to feel painfully sorry for myself on days like today.  Angry at my disease, angry at my inability to do the things I believe I can easily do.   Recently I’ve stopped beating myself up.  I work hard to be as healthy as I can be.  Sometimes I have to take a beat.  Life is tough enough as it is, I don’t need to add to my woes by twisting myself in knots.

On the plus side, I watched “Marry Me.”  It wasn’t great (it kind of reminded me of “Notting Hill” but without as many quotable lines).  But I am a diehard Jennifer Lopez fan, and I have been for years.  She is my North Star for skincare and style and health.  And she looks phenomenal (as per usual).  Plus, who doesn’t love Owen Wilson’s quirky?

It might snow tonight, which is a plus and a minus.  Because I’m so tired, and John is gone, there’s a little stress about walking and if it gets icy or slick.  And I probably won’t get a chai in the morning.  But snow is snow and it soothes my soul.

My soul needs some soothing right about now.

Xox, g