Today was the last weekday of John’s annual ‘half’ – and because his company does quotas and such in six month increments, it was the last day of crunch time to get deals in to hit sales goals.  I’ve learned an enormous amount about corporate America and sales from listening to John talk about work.  It’s all fascinating but I am also glad to not be in the rat race anymore.

On the plus side, John hit the goals he wanted to hit yesterday, so today was just icing on the cake.  He’s had a really good run since about late May, and we’ve been very lucky.  I’ve been supremely lucky because for the first time since I stopped working, I haven’t felt any pressure or need to go back and earn a paycheck.  That’s a huge stress relief for a woman with an autoimmune disease that’s triggered by inflammation brought on by stress.

It also began snowing this morning and has continued throughout the day into the evening.  It’s beautiful, soft falling snow.  Keeping life quiet, but not panicked by massive accumulation.  Even the grocery store wasn’t a hot mess when I stopped to get Starbucks this morning.

Today felt calm and cozy.  We raised the thermostat two degrees because things just weren’t warming up (even with some space heaters) and now the house feels so warm it makes me constantly want to fall asleep.  Haha!

Life feels strangely okay – not the okay you say through a strained smile, but the actual okay of feeling secure and at ease.  I don’t trust it – I’ve had too many body swerve moments to feel safe.  But just to have this moment – it is a gift.

Xox, g