I’m intermittently sweating and shivering today with a low-grade fever.  So that’s fun for me (and even less so for John and Lucy who have been on their own because I’m out of commission).

Day 40 makes me think of Lent and finally being ‘done’ with whatever I’d given up.  Day 40 was Starbucks again, or a glass of wine.  Today, Day 40 is just another day in a long string of days.  A Tuesday.

Here’s where I’m at —>

I wanted to give up social media (specifically Instagram) because I felt as though I was giving it too much time.  So far, I’ve been successful at not hitting up Instagram.  I’ll go back eventually (I know that in this day and age, one has to be on social to know what’s going on).  But I want to know that when I go back, I won’t be so drawn to it.  That’s going to take a little more time off.

I wanted to write every day.  I’ve done that, even if it’s been here (on the blog).  I needed to find a way back to my creative side but also find some discipline.

I failed miserably at giving up Starbucks.  That’s for another day, I guess.

John + I had other ideas for the new year – reading more, being better about mealtimes, etc.  We’ve been … better.  Until this week (& feeling like death) I’ve been pretty good at not watching TV until 6p (at the earliest) during the week.  I’ve read more.  I’ve written a letter (hopefully more in the future).  I haven’t had alcohol in 421 days, so that’s a record (in my adult life).  I don’t really miss it, which is nice.  I already feel like death so often — MS + age is a terrible combo.  I don’t need alcohol to help me out.

I think there are more things that we resolved to do, and if my brain wasn’t a complete jumble right now, I’d list them.  Needless to say, we’re doing our best to live lives that make us happy.  Some days we succeed more than others, but in general we feel pretty good about where we are.  We cook together, we take walks, we get sleep.  Those are all good things.  Maybe we’ll travel again.  Maybe we’ll get the vaccine. We hope that happens sooner rather than later, but who knows?

Right now I’m just tired and I’m going to start dinner before I fall asleep again.

Xox, g