It’s been a weird day for me.

I’ve really, really struggled. Putting on a happy face has been nearly impossible.  I failed multiple times.  I snapped, not reacting properly or saying the wrong thing.  I let my guard down and was myself instead of the caricature of myself that I inevitably play in these situations.

The thing is, some humans just don’t understand other humans.  And even if it isn’t meant or isn’t intentional,  things are said and meaning is implied and feelings get hurt and everyone is unhappy, misunderstood and exhausted by the end.  Over it.  Spending time with people who just aren’t compatible with you wears on you.  After years your nerves are exposed and raw and tired.  And the charade gets harder and harder.

We are in the throes of one of the toughest times in our country’s recent history.  Politically, socially, economically.  We are all tired.  We are all feeling a little bit on edge.

Anyway.  I can justify it all I want but today was a tough one and I was not my best self.  And that’s all, really.

Xox, g