So, we’re twenty-three days into the new year, and upon reflection, I’m not sure that I’ve been very attentive to any of my resolutions.  I have, however, been very good at doing much more trivial things.  For example — I have taken my vitamins every day this month.  So far.  That’s a small miracle.

And, even though some days I’ve written a bunch of b.s., I have blogged every single day since January the first.  Amazing!

And I’ve also started using moisturizer every day.  (That’s a big thing, because I have no problem slathering the moisturizer on my face, but I really hate spending the time to moisturize my whole body.  I mean — it’s beyond tedious).

And I have had a minimum of sixty ounces of water a day.  Which still isn’t enough, but it’s a good effort.  Although I must admit that I am a little bit of a camel, and I usually drink a boatload of water a day anyway.

But learning Spanish and playing my keyboard?  Yeah, I haven’t done those things.  And while I have left Facebook and Instagram off my phone, Twitter is back, because, well, just because.  That’s why.

And I have completely failed at beginning each day by saying “Today is going to be a good day.”  I have sporadically remembered — and when I do I am very proud of myself.  And I also think it totally makes a difference.  But as far as forming a new habit?  Yeah, I have a little ways to go.

And being better about eating?  Yeah — haven’t even gotten to that yet.  First, because this January has been insane, second because the hubs was away and that makes me sad, third because I went to LA for work and it was completely about food and fourth — because eating is a comfort thing for me, and I have needed a lot of comfort.  I know I can be disciplined and focused — I’ve done it in the past.  It’s just finding the mojo and the grit to get started.  Because the first week is really the worst.  And then — well, you start to feel better, you have a little more energy (if you don’t have MS, that is) and sometimes you even lose weight.

I’m actually pretty proud of myself for the blogging and the vitamin-taking.  I’ve been such a slacker in the past that to stick with something (even if I’m only at 23 days) feels pretty good.  Sort of like quitting smoking.  At the beginning it was all about counting the days — until it wasn’t.  Until it was totally normal not to smoke, not to stop at gas stations and buy a pack, not to wander outside in the middle of a shift to suck down some nicotine ‘because you just couldn’t get through the rest of the night without it.‘

So here I am, feeling like absolute death on a Friday night (someone — well, me– might have had one or two glasses of wine too many last night) and I’m going to re-commit to my resolutions and refocus on being kind to myself –both physically and mentally.

I’ll check back in next month.  Hopefully the blogging and vitamin-taking is still going strong.  And hopefully I’ve added to my list.